Who knew?

Well, actually, I am sure lots of people...anyone with any experience, that is. For those of us blissfully unaware until we live it, words cannot convey what life brings...plus, I am quite sure that everyone experiences life a bit differently, so, it is never quite the same for any two of us. What is it I am talking about you ask?

Well, days like this. Trying to both convey how I feel, and not throw a pity party might be difficult, but just bear with me for a moment.

Who knew being pregnant with your second (or subsequent, I am assuming) could be both very enjoyable and make you want to pull all your hair out or go hibernate until the little darling was cooked?
Who knew a two year old could both be so sweet and loving and yet drive you completely mad- with no escape, not even tears (your own) could make you feel more able to handle it... and yet, so full of love for said two year old that you wish he would stay two forever?
Who knew that organizing tight quarters could be so overwhelming, so much so that you nearly burst into tears just thinking about it?
Who knew you could miss your mother more now, nearly in your 30s than when you were out of the house as a teen?
Who knew you could walk around a grocery store with a screaming toddler, holding back your nausea from turning mess and still try and grab a deal on peanut butter? Yet, alas, I have not mastered the smile to the lady giving you an evil eye for having such a misbehaved child in her presence...
Who knew that the thought of another load of laundry could bring you to your knees in tears...more the thought of folding it and getting it to proper drawers...?
Who knew all of this would make me such an emotional basket-case?
Who knew that still having 9 weeks of pregnancy, while feeling like you could not grow another inch, be any more nauseous, or have any more back pain, or have your mind filled with too many what if's could make you feel so weak as an individual?
well, I sure am learning it all first hand.

Also, let me share with you, so maybe I'll get one less- how's the nursery coming-s...
Because here is how is it coming... :)

Actually, I can laugh at this. Because I know that it will come together...eventually. I just pray that it is BEFORE sweet pea decides to arrive. Can't you see it? Turquoise walls...or khacki if I can't find the bedding I want...built ins, organized...cute art... yep, it's all....well, we aren't there yet. But the wood will be on it's way out this weekend (fingers crossed, prayers flying) being finished into the desk that will be in the living area...and the wall you can't see it where those bools in bins are coming from, as that will eventually be a built-in... yeah. there is much progress that needs to be made. I think my sweet hubby is overwhelmed too. But, in his case, he is not being forced from within to slow down with commitments...
Well, thankfully we even HAVE a room like this to work with...just not sure where all that OTHER stuff is going to go yet... yard sale anyone? :)